I actually wrote this last October for a planned collection of essays book that I’m still working on. Because Steve Jobs passed away recently, I thought about presenting it here as a sort of tribute to Steve Jobs. He was a genius, and he will be missed.
I DID THINK DIFFERENT BEFORE IT BECAME APPLE’S SLOGAN
(Essay dated 10/18/10)
Before I was diagnosed with Asperger’s Syndrome in 2002, everyone attached the different label on me. They said, “Yvonne, you’re so different!” so many times that I felt was hearing a TV commercial catch-phrase. However, I didn’t understand why they kept on describing me with the word “different” all the time.
When I was a child growing up in the suburbs of Washington, DC, I kept hearing this word “different” and thought people didn’t understand me at all. It seemed as though that was the only word they could think of to describe me. Of course, when I was bullied they said a lot of harsh words again me. That “Sticks and Stones” saying is a lot of nonsense because the words hurt a great deal because I was an undiagnosed person with Asperger’s Syndrome and had trouble controlling emotions. My brain was not like theirs at all. The real truth was that I was being normal under the influence of my undiagnosed Asperger’s Syndrome.
Being called different annoyed me, but I wasn’t being sensitive to criticism. I only saw it as though the others (classmates, teachers, parents, and siblings) just didn’t see who I was. Also, I didn’t understand how I was being different from everyone else (sometimes, I thought the people around me were crazy with their observations about me and other things). I wore clothes, I bathed every day, I love watching television (maybe too much), I loved music (The Beatles being my favorites, despite the fact that some of the kids I went to school with during the 1970s resented that I loved them), and I loved to eat candy just like everyone else at school. Yet, other kids and, after I grew up, adults would look at me and remark that I was different, as though I was going against the norm.
I, like others who were diagnosed with Asperger’s Syndrome as adults, didn’t realize what they were saying when they said the word “different.” When I got that diagnosis, I discovered why they were saying it.

Rest in Peace, Steve Jobs!
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